New Make Up Tools + Being Nostalgic

I am not a makeup person. Period!

Back in high school, we had a cosmetology subject where manicure, pedicure, nail arts, hair cuts, and make up were being taught. Since I am against using anything to my face, I didn't learn the proper way of applying make-ups, didn't learn nail arts, besides no one wants to model for my haircut service, baka kasi ma murder ko ang hair nila. All along, naiisip ko na pang kikay at pang malalandi lang ang make-ups.

Oh wag nyo akong sabunutan, yan talaga ang naiisip ko noon eh. Whenever I see people with make-ups on, lalo na yung obvious tapos wala naman party or events, maarte na agad ang tingin ko. 

Yuh.. judgemental na ako! 

When I went to college, I learned how to fix my hair, put blusher.. that's it. But it's very very minimal. Yung masabi lang ba na hindi naman ako chaka. 

Anyway, when I had my first job, I am against make ups pa din. I still think that it's not necessary. Simplicity is the best talaga, yan ang lagi kong motto. Hahah! I may not love make-ups but I am a frustrated fashionista. I am too conscious of my clothes, I should not underdress or overdress.

One of the weddings that I attended in 2012

One month pregnant here. =) I didn't know pa.

Time passed by, I had a baby, still doesn't like make - ups and anything about skin care. I hated all of it until one day, 

We were going to a wedding since FMIL will be a Ninang daw. We would all go since Daryl will drive for her. I borrowed a dress from my sister so that saved me from my #ootd dilemma. My hair is too long and frizzy but I know how to braid it so it also saved me from looking like chaka however, I don't have a powder, or a blusher. I only have a lipstick with me that I used as a blusher.

Kawawa to the highest levelz!!

Gosshh.. I came to think, what happen to the kikay, maarte and fashionista me?! Where did she go?

That didn't stop there.. Lagi akong namomroblema sa mga isusuot ko on events like wedding, debuts or any formal event or gathering. I always bother my sister of something that I can borrow. I mean, I always do that back in the days but now, due to my post-partum body, I can't fit on most of her clothes. I can only borrow some. =( I guess I have to invest on clothes now.. As in now na! Sana bukas umulan ng madaming pang - shopping. Hahaha! =)

One night, before we went to sleep..

Me: Babe, magkakaron ako ng extra money by July, iniisip ko kung ibibili ko ba sya ng kama or ipangpapa-rebond ko na lang ng hair ko.

Daryl: Ipangpa rebond mo na lang. Hayaan mo na yang kama, ok pa naman tayo dito eh. Alagaan mo naman ang sarili mo.

Awwww... I am so touched lang. 

Pero naisip ko, baka ang chaka ko na talaga kaya sinabi nyang alagaan ko naman ang sarili ko. Gaaaahhd!!

All along, pinagdadamutan ko ang sarili ko dahil mas importante ang mga gamit sa bahay, grocery, utilities and savings. I forgot to take care of myself. I am still fat, I never got back to my pre-pregnancy body. My hair is sooo long, dry, frizzy, ugly so it's always on a bun. I don't have any make up tools to save me in an emergency party or event. I no longer have a little black dress in my closet. I don't have enough jeans for office wear, my dresses are all old, my tops were very limited. =(

Parang gusto kong maiyak! Hayyy..

Don't get me wrong guys. Hindi kami mayaman so hindi branded ang mga damit ko dati but at least, I can buy one or two clothes every payday. I can buy heels during sale, I use my 13th month pay to have a hair treatment yearly, I am self proclaimed "fashionista" in my very own way. I have never been sexy with flat tummy levelz pero I am not fat, tama lang kung baga. I have time to Mani - Pedi myself etc.

Now, I can't do all that. We have enough things on our plate for me to think about those. I miss it so much. Nakakamiss kaya ang maging maganda, ang makapag suot ng damit na fitted pero hindi masagwa ang bilbil. Yung mag sleeveless ng hindi nakakahiyang i flaunt ang arms mo kasi hindi naman kalakihan. Yung makakapag suot ka pa ng bra sa beach while wearing a sexy shorts, kering keri i flaunt ang tummy kasi makinis at walang stretchmarks.

One of the wedding I attended last month

Yah.. Motherhood changed it all. Hindi naman ako nagsisisi. I love my life now, I am happier, patient, loving, and selfless. I love Jami and Daryl everyday.. Motto nga namin eh, We.always.go.together.

Pero hindi about jan talaga ang iba blog ko eh, sorry na carried away lang.. Hahaha! 

What I want to show you is, because of those scenario.. I am trying to be better. I want to be as beautiful as I am before. I want to be able to wear nice fitting clothes without thinking about my bulging tummy. I used to be a suki of selfie but because I feel so ugly, I don't want to take picture of myself anymore. 

Gone are the days.. in the past weeks,

I learned how to shape my eyebrows. 

I learned to maintain it and use brow pencil to modify it more. 

I learned to use BB Cream and Face Powder.

I learned that Daryl likes my eyelashes curled up so I bought a mascara to make it fuller.

I relearned that my face will look slimmer if I flaunt my hair.

I relearned to gain the confidence I lost when I gave birth.

Although, I can't get back on shape overnight, I want to start doing something about it. People in the office says I'm getting payat daw pero ang hindi nila alam, that's because of my new hair haha! 

So for the record, I am filling up my make up kits slowly. I have everything that I need on a daily basis and that's enough to save me on any urgent parties or events/gatherings so I won't look like sobrang haggard naman.

I originally posted this photo on my post about what's in my bag last week. 

I started with avon cosmetics since they are not that expensive and I don't want to risk naman trying out something I got in the market tapos end up na di ko bet so mostly yan, suggestion ng mga officemate ko which I think compliments my skin color naman. 

I still have some missing that I got recently after that post was made. Here they are:

Avon Brush set for only P99 (on sale)

Nichido Blushing Pink Shade for P88

I loved the brush set, sobrang lambot. Before I got the blusher on my birthday, I borrowed one from my officemate (blusher and brush) and her's is breaking like powder because her brush is kind of matigas. When I bought the same blusher, I noticed that mine doesn't break so I told her na baka masyadong matigas yung brush nya. I liked the blusher. That's actually my officemate's shade din. It's pink so hindi mukang sinampal ang fez ko. =)

For the mean time, kuntento na ako sa make up kit ko. What I am planning to do is to invest on moisturizer naman since they can make your skin younger.. tama ba? 

Kayo? Any recommendations on what's the best moisturizer?