Sometimes, I want to be a SAHM

I am becoming to feel a little jealous nowadays.

During the time that Nanay is looking after James, I was complaining that I never had a time for myself. Whenever I am home, I am the one in-charge in taking care of James. I have to look after him and make asikaso on everything that he needs except washing his milk bottles because most of the time, Nanay wants to get it done right away so she ends up doing the chores. What I do is to bathe James, put him to sleep in the morning before I go to work and play with him. Nanay doesn't have the time and energy to play with James. She's a bit old and tired to play with my very handful baby. She sometimes doesn't have much patience with him, probably because she's been taking care of her grandchildren most of her life and was in the edge of being too old? I guess..

I can still remember myself getting annoyed when I can't even pee. You can't leave James alone specially if he's not in the crib because he will either bump his head or he will eat everything that he touches.

But boy, things changed. The other night, I came home hearing James crying. His Tita Grace said that he woke up because of the noise outside. I went inside and found out that he can't sleep very well. Mejo mababaw ang tulog nya. I changed clothes and lay on my space of the bed. Well, it's not actually a bed, parang may sobrang nipis na sapin lang kami sa floor then the play mat that we bought sa SM. I was expecting every night when I came home that I can kiss and hug James but what I have been seeing lately is that, Nanay Isa was hugging him at night na para bang sila ang mag - ina. There were time pa na mas magkatabi pa sila kesa sakin. I just feel a little jealous kasi I can't kiss James goodnight before I sleep. It kinda saddened me because I have my 8 hours spent at work + the 4 hours of back and forth ride from home to office vice versa. I only have 1 to 2 hours to hug him and get a chance to watch him while he sleeps but it doesn't happen now. I was so sad that night that things are coming thru my mind that he was closer to someone rather than me, you know? A mom guilt? I mentioned on my previous post here that he doesn't want to be carried by anyone else but me naman. I think he just got use of Nanay Isa since they were only the two of us while Im at work. Although he still does that when he sees me, it's like if I am not around, he'll go to the next familiar face he recognize, I still feel jealous. I have chosen to work in the day though I know it might not be enough to cover our expenses just to be with him at night, so that I have the time to cuddle, kiss and talk to him while he sleeps. Alam nyo yan mga bakla! That's how badly I want to co-sleep with James. In the morning when James wakes up, he wants to play immediately. With that, Nanay Isa would look after him while I sleep a little longer. I'll be up at 8am, by this time, James is bored and wants to be carried already. I will carry him not because I want him na masanay sa karga but this is the only chance I get to at least have him close to me. There were times that he still cries kahit karga ko na sya, you know that cry that wasn't really a cry? but an inarte cry? I wanted to find out what he wants and what would I do to at least to know him better but Nanay Isa will get him from me and will go out of the house then he will stop crying for a while. Alam nyo naman si James, anak ng gala kaya kapag nasa labas ng bahay, kiber nya sa world. I was a bit shy naman to tell Nanay Isa that I want James in the morning and she just have to look after him while I'm away and when I am home, I'll be in charge. By the way, if you're new in reading this blog, Nanay Isa was my Nanay's (my Mom) younger sister. She was sent here in Manila to look after James while Nanay is in Surigao.

Last night naman, James was still awake. I was told that he woke up because of the noise of our neighbor again but usually, James sleeps even when there where noise around. Walang pakealam yan. We have been co-sleeping together for 9 months and there was this one night that he woke up for some reason and played a little but soon enough he went back to sleep. I just don't know what happened last night, he's awake and wants to play. One thing that I really don't like is that if James are being dragged to sleep. First, it was frustrating for him and the baby sitter and two, I don't want na lagi syang tinatakot. He is scared kasi with Tita Grace's voice lalo na kapag sinisitsitan sya. It was quite annoying that night. If it was me kasi, what I'll do is to let him play kasi when he get tired naman,  he will go back to sleep on his own which happened naman that night.

I am also not the OC type but I really hate when James' clothes were being washed along with someone else's clothes, even my own clothes. I want his things to get on the laundry first. I also doesn't want to have his clothes to be hanging outside our house hanggang gabi. I think there were some clothes na nung nakaraang araw ko pa nakikita. I got it earlier this morning and found out na some are still kind of wet and doesn't smell good. Hayyy.. =(

I was thinking if I am a SAHM, I could have had my precious time spent to my son but hey, I have to sacrifice that just to make sure he'll have his diaper and other necessities. I remembered just now, James' Tita Fraulene said ; "sakripisyo lang talaga" which I now understand quite well.

Mommy Fleur was right, you will get use with the guilt of being a WM but from time to time, susundutin ka ng kunsensya mo. All I think of is that I have to do this because this is for his own good, this is for our future and the best of all, it doesn't make me a less of a mother to him right?

I just hope tonight when I go home, he's sleeping well so I can hug him and kiss him and watch him habang nakanganga sya matulog.

That's it. Bow!

My Best Cousins! =)

When I was a kid, I am often asked by my playmates as to who my bff is. I always answered "my bff's" name to them. Some were getting jealous kasi that person was no longer in the same community we're on but I insisted that she was still my bestfriend. It took me years to figure out that she was indeed no longer a part of my life. I met her years ago then realized that she wasn't the same person I was once proud of. Parang andami na namin na miss and mejo malayo na ang loob namin sa isa't isa or it can be that I was just the one thinking na best friends kami. Hehe.

Anyway, after her, I had a hard time looking for someone whom I can share anything and everything under the sun. I mean, those things that I wanted to tell stories without the feeling na baka ipagsabi nya din sa iba. I had some friends, close friends but wasn't enough to fulfill that feeling na you had a bestfriend that you can count on always. I have some friends whom I tell my stories but I think I hadn't had the bestfriend that I wanted to be with until my hair turns gray. I relied on my cousins from the time that I had my boyfriend problems. They were my younger sisters I never had. Until today, we were seeing each other if they have the time to visit me and James then we can talk and tease each other till dawn. Hindi na nga lang ako maka join sa slumber party nila kasi I am choosing to be with James to sleep at night rather than them which of course I know they understand. Ako pa nga yung naiinggit sa kanila eh kapag nag slumber party sila.

Ang mga baliw kong second cousins! (L-R Roselle, Monilyn, Moi poging baby and Khean) 

That's them when they had a surprise visit for me. They were actually visiting James pero sleep na ang bagets when they came. It turned out that they were planning to go to Mall of Asia but decided to go straight to our house. The funny thing was they stayed outside of our house for 30 minutes and longer kasi they thought Nanay was asleep already. Good thing James' Tita Grace went out of the house kaya nakita silang nakatambay or else baka wala na silang mga binti kasi pinapak na ng mga lamok. Hahahaha! 

Since I usually arrive around 11pm, we have decided to take out Mcdonalds then had a little chat then went to sleep. These people are one of my favorites kasi I can talk thrash to them without them judging me. I can talk silly things about anything and everything, even tell stories about my crazy families. I even remember going out of our house in the night with them then just talk about non-sense. We shared dinners and lunches too and now that we have our own ways to earn money ourselves, they always treat me. Hahahaha! =) That's how much they loved me and I love them to the moon and back, di nga lang halata. 

The last time we saw each other, they were teasing me na ang taba ko daw. They even told me na naligaw sila sa street namin and asked someone about me. Ang sabi daw :

Neighbor: Ah yung matabang babae na bagong lipat?

Shet. Parang gusto kong gilitan yung manong na nagsabi nun ha? They were laughing when they saw my reaction and I know it was a lie pero hindi daw, sinabi daw talaga yun nung kapitbahay. Hmmp!

I was supposed to be blogging about my officemates but I got carried away by these set of people. I missed them much. Hehe. =)

The floor is yours! Who your best buddies and why? I'll be glad to know! =)

Restaurant Review | Hong Kong Noodles & Dimsum House

One night after shift, I think it was a month or so ago (super delayed), I was told by one of our batchmate not to go home yet because Ate Annie, who was one of our friends too is inviting us to eat on a nearby resto. I was a bit hesitant at first since I have an original commitment to meet Daryl after shift. They said we will only be spending 30 minutes there then we can all go home. Since the resto is one kembot away from our office building, I agreed na din. I also wanted to try different resto anyway. 

We dropped by to Hong Kong Noodles and Dimsum House. Again, my picky – eater self was hesitant to go because 1.) I don’t eat food that is not familiar to me 2.) I don’t like noodles and Dimsum. However, I have 3 guy officemates that I can give my food to when I don’t feel like eating it. For me, it will just be the sake of just trying the food and see if I’ll like it and will consider it in the future.

Our shift ended at around 10pm so there were only a few people around. The place was small and I find the lightning a bit dark but that’s fine. Well, I think it’s because of the ceiling, mejo mababa kasi they have a second level na parang loft style kaya mejo naging madilim yung nasa baba. Anyway, Nadala naman ng chairs nila that was very comfy so okay na din. Hehe. Plus, I have the craziest friends ever so I have no time to make inarte on the place. We were given the menu and started choosing what we want. They offer rice meals and noodles too but I think I was too full to eat heavy meals. I usually don’t eat by night kasi eh feeling ko bloated ako on the following days if I’ll do. 

 Here's us while waiting for the food to be served. From L-R : Ate Annie, Franz, Ken, Me and Euclid.

I have ordered the Sweet and Sour Fish Fillet with Rice for P115 pesos. Oops! Sabi ko I don’t eat at night but don’t worry, nakikisama lang ako kasi nag rice sila eh. Hehehe. I also asked Euclid to have a share on my food kasi for sure I wont be eating that much. I find the Fillet tastes okay. I have tasted the Sweet and Sour fish fillet of Classic Savory and I liked it better.  

After the food is served.. Teka picture muna!

 

 ATTACK!!! Hahahahah. =)

Ate Annie and Ken ordered their Fried Chicken that really tastes good we all agreed on it. It almost tastes like the Fried Chicken in Max’s Restaurant. Mejo nagsisi nga ako, sana yun inorder ko but anyway, I didn’t like meat that time kasi eh. Euclid ordered Wanton Soup I think and Franz had their sort of Liempo? I’m sorry I forgot kasi I wasn’t paying too much attention with their orders. Hehehe. Bad me. =) 

In total, I would like to give the opportunity to try the food again some other time regardless if it’s the same set of people or not. =) Let me rate it 7 out 10 being the highest. Thanks for the chicken who made me agree na masarap dito. I just want to try it again sometime so I can back up the score I have given. Mejo feeling ko kasi unfair dahil I was too full so hindi ko masyadong naappreciate ang food choices nila. 

By the way, Most of their food were around 80 to 100++ which I think sounds good. Each food is good for 1 serving only.

 

Anyway, we really had a blast that night given that it was a treat for us all. Hehe, Thanks ate annie for that late night chibog! Sa uultin. =)

If you wish to try this resto, let me know so we can meet up. I am just in the building across the store. It'll be nice if we can have a little chit chat too., The address of this store is on the first photo. 

*credits to Euclid mah friend for all the photos =) 

I Won! I Won!! Yay! =)

Ow.Em.Gee Guyssssss!!!

I can't believe it!! For the first time ever in my life ngayon lang ako nanalo sa raffle!

Just so you know, tuwing Christmas Party ng mga dating company na pinasukan ko, I always make sure I'll join the raffle. Kahit yung mga nasa groceries na coupons na will serve as your entry for a raffle? Pinapatos ko yun! Unfortunately, lagi akong hindi nananalo! Hayy..

There was one coupon given to me last weekend in Megamall that I gave to my officemate Ate Annie kasi sabi ko sa kanya, I never won anything naman kaya sya na lang baka swerte ang name nya at manalo sya ng condo, hatian na lang nya ako! Haha.

Anyway, I was continuously browsing my dashboard when I noticed na parang ilang araw ng walang post ang favorite blogger ko so I went to her site to check. I found out na she was able to announce the winner of her giveaway so I immediately read it. But before hand, I am quite disappointed kasi I have checked my email and have not received a message to anybody. To my surprise while reading the winners name, I think I saw my name on it. Kinabahan ako ng bonggang bongga and thought na namalikmata lang ako pero hindi pala mga bakla!!! I really saw my name. I actually asked my seatmate kung pangalan ko nga ba talaga yung andun. OMG! I think I want to cry sa sobrang tuwa ko. Double pa ang happiness kasi ang nag host ng giveaway ay walang iba kundi ang Famous MOMMY FLEUR!! Oh diba? Kundi ka maloka ka jan ewan ko na lang. Hahahaha!

screen shot from Mommy Fleur Blog

 It was for her 5th year anniversary giveaway that I joined. Honestly, hindi ko naman inexpect na manalo. I just wanted to join and try my luck. I wanted to get the baby products for James pero kahit ano pa yang nakuha ko, I am glad to the max kasi winner na nga eh. First timer to!! Hahahaha.

I won this:

photo grabbed from Mommy Fleur Blog

Sorry about being crazy at this moment and being mababaw, it just that, I have been looking up to Mommy Fleur so much and I can't believe that I just won. Hihihi.

Congrats din sa ibang girls and Mommies na nanalo ha?! Gusto ko na talaga tuloy sumali ng giveaway lagi. =)

Body Aching Weekend

Regular programming of Mommy Jen's blog starts now. =)

I just hope na makapag upload na din ako ng mga photos para ma complete na ang pagba blog ko. It's been a while! Whew!

Anyway, I just want to make kwento about how our weekend went. As usual it is the simplest it can get. On Saturday morning, I tagged along James with me going to AMC (Alabang Medical Clinic) Almanza to have his stool checked as per Dra. Alarcio's advise. Nagtatae kasi so we have to see kung amoebiasis ba yun. When we got to the clinic, I was told na they can't use the stool I brought with me kasi dapat daw binaliktad ko yung diaper or else, maabsorb ng diaper yung poop. Yun pala yung sinsabi ni Dra. Alarcio, malay ko bang ganon pala ka importante yun? Hehehe. Nasayang tuloy yung pagpunta namin dun. I just said na I'll be waiting for him to poop again.

Anyway, James and I headed to SM Megamall with my friends in the afternoon to revisit Dads/Saisaki/Kamayan. It was my second time there but then I don't have any pictures taken. Since it was a Saturday gimmick, I have to bring James with me. My sister texted me that James can't sleep well in the afternoon and at night. He's not used on having someone else before he sleeps unless he was really sleepy and can't stand to stay awake. He's not used with Nanay Isa yet so he was making himself awake all the time. So to avoid him not being able to sleep again, nakakaawa kasi eh, I have to bring him with me. I also don't want to waste the weekend not having James with me.

We arrived there around 3pm. I didn't have trouble commuting because 2pm was off peak hours of MRT so I was able to sit and the train wasn't that crowded yet. I have just noticed that James is now very clingy. He doesn't want to be carried by someone else but me. Although he allowed Jo-anne to carry him, as soon as he sees me, he will cry and wants to go to me. I enjoyed this part of being a mother because it shows how attached he is to me. I can feel our closeness and his need of his mom. The only downside is that I don't have time para magbanat ng likod. My back ached so much na para bang ayaw na nitong bumalik sa dating posture, my left arm ached for carrying him for so long and lastly, my left shoulder for carrying him while he's asleep. Grabe!! Ang sakit sa katawan but I am fine. I can't complain. He wants to be carried by his mom so I don't want him to have the impression na ayaw ko syang kargahin. It is very, very tiring specially now that he weighs 10.4kgs.

I handed him to Jo-anne so that I can get my turn in the buffet area. While eating, I have him seated in my lap while he munch on his biscuit that we brought with us. Later that afternoon, he was crying and doesn't want to be carried by anyone else. Oh wait, he does as long as he doesn't see me. He was so sleepy so I have to sit on the next table while my friends were having selfie selfie =( . Wala tuloy akong pictures. We walked around Megamall carrying James most of the time.
We went to grocery to buy James' milk. We headed to Dept Store since ate Annie likes to buy a nice pair daw.

Kagigising lang. =)

 We also stayed in Krispy Kreme for awhile while waiting for Daryl to text me that he's on his way. James was so energetic. He's all over the place so we have to get the chair with cushion in the store so I can let him play while I sat on the end of the chair. I gave everything that he can eat kasi tumutubo na yung teeth nya so he wants something na pwede nyang kagat - kagatin. I forgot to bring a toy kasi eh. Bad Momma =( I gave the cap of his mil bottles na hinulog din nya so I have to refrain him to put it inside his mouth. When I ran out of bottle caps, I gave this-

 

 - Milk Dispenser.

We were all laughing because of James, he so love phones with front camera. Whenever he sees himself, he smiles as if he's enjoying his own looks. =)

When I received a go signal from Daryl, I opted to go home, that's when I found out na ang lakas ng ulan. We stayed for a while to let the rain pass but it's not stopping. Good thing Sokey was there to accompany us until MRT Taft Station where Daryl was waiting for us so we can go home to my house. We waited for a while in Mcdonalds Taft because it was raining. I was having a second thought of going home because I am not sure if James has a fever. I think he's a bit warm than the usual although he remained makulit all along. We went home after a while. Mejo nagkakainisan pa nga kami ni Daryl sa jeep kasi nga ang kulit ni James and he was crying kasi pawis na pawis na sya. We could have rode a bus but we have to walk a little too far. James fell asleep when we get over the toll gate in Coastal Road.

We reached our house at 11pm na ata. People at home were so worried. My battery died na din so I wasn't able to let them know of what's happening.

The next day, I woke up having a backache, armache, shoulderache dahil sa pagkarga kay James. I can't bring his stroller with us kasi we were commuting eh. If baby carrier naman, same lang din, sasakit lang din ang likod ko.

On Sunday, we just stayed in our house having a time of our life. I don't want to go anywhere, I am just so tired to move but I have no choice but to bathe and entertain James. He wants to play all the time and I have to catch up with his energy. Sana lang ikapayat ko naman ang kalikutan ng anak ko. Hehehe.

Thank God weekends are there to give us WMs a chance and time to bond with our families and kids. I always make sure that I have it spent with James and Daryl. It was the memories of this bonding moments that counts naman diba? Not the hours I spent working away from home. I just wish someday that I can be a WAHM so I can be with James 24/7 specially if he is sick. I want to be the one who organizes his medicine intake as much as possible but I can't just now because I am busy thinking about his future, our future. This doesn't make me a less of a mother diba?

On a lighter note, James is getting better and better and he started to gain weight again. hayy.., When people say that James is so chubby and cute, It's a music to my ears. I can't help but tell them na "pumayat na nga yan eh". Then people would say na "pumayat ka pa ng lagay na yan ha". Hahaha. Us moms never get tired of being happy and proud with our babies no?! =)

MIA + James is Sick Again

Hi Guyyyyssssss!!

Sorry I was absent for couple days again. I was even absent from work for 2 consecutive days. I was late couple of days before that for 3 hours. My attendance now at work really sucks big time. It annoys me because I really didn't want to incur any absences, only if the situation calls like what happened for the past 2 days. 

I was a little bit down lately because of certain changes that's happening in my life. Nanay decided to go to Surigao for another work. My sister mentioned to her that they are in need of a cook for their welders where they'll give P1,000 pesos a day which was not really bad nowadays diba? So Nanay immediately agreed on to it then last Sunday afternoon, my sister called that her flight will be last Tuesday morning. I was feeling that I didn't have enough time to think and decide and all so I told her that I wanted to do different things, I wanted to do things as I think of them pero hindi naman final. It just came across my mind but definitely not a final decision. She sent her sister over to take care of James while at work so she can be complaisant and secure and James is being handled well while she and I are away. 

After Typhoon Glenda and the blackout, James got sick. Though he didn’t have a fever, he had colds followed by cough.. terrible cough. It was Wednesday when I absent myself from work since no one will be looking after him which I guess is a good day to bring James to his pedia. I called AMC ( Alabang Medical Clinic ) Almanza to see if Dra. Medina is available. Unfortunately, she’s out due to her pregnancy and their last pedia would only be until 4pm, it was 3:30pm when I called I think so I had limited time to dress up and prepare our diaper bag + the travel time. James’ Tita Grace suggested to call AMC Talon branch to check if Dra. Alarcio is available. I was lucky that she’s having her shift at 3pm to 5pm so then off we go to the hospital which was couple of blocks away from home. 

When we get there, I was asked to place James on the weighing scale for baby. He’s a bit sleepy by then so when I placed him, wala syang reklamo. The nurse said that she was way too big for the scale, he was 10.4kgs. Oh dear! Partida pa yan 2 days na syang walang gana dumede ha! Anyway, we paid our dues then off we went to wait for our turn. James must be really sleepy because he managed to sleep even there was this toddler who kept on shouting his lungs out – which was, well quite annoying because his parent just kept on telling him to stop but he’s not stopping. I just tried my best to understand him because I know, sooner or later, I’ll be having the same dilemma. 

When we were called, we were actually the last, James woke up. He was checked by stetoscope and immediately, Dra. Alarcio said that it must be Pneumonia. Oh no!!! Not again!! She gave me an antibiotic (triocef 2 bottles for free). She also commended me for giving James Cetirizine and Nebulize him as a first aid though she wants him to be nebulized every 4 hours dahil sobrang plema daw ng ubo ni James. I was then told to start giving him Zinc Sulfate and hydrite because he pooped 3 times a day before. She wants James’ poop to be examined to to make sure that it wasn’t amoebiasis that he’s having.

She said to have a follow up check up the next day to check If there’s an improvement which was supposed to be yesterday but we weren’t able to go back at all due to short funds. =( I have decided to continue his medication first then I’ll have to bring him today, Friday but then I have to go to work now because I can’t afford to be absent for another day. We are getting paid every 2 weeks which makes it a 10 days work schedule to be paid and if I have to be absent for 3 days then I would definitely expect a very, very frustrating salary. Although I never regret being absent to be with James on times in need, I still have to weigh the consequences – the guilt of being a WM. 

Anyway, I am glad to report that his now being able to consume the usual 6oz that he takes when he’s hungry or due for another milk. For the last couple of days that his cough is on it’s peak, he vomits when he consumed the full 6oz. His getting better now and he doesn’t cough often though you can still hear a phlegm when he coughs. I always to talk to him telling him “ibigay mo na lang kay mama yang ubo at sipon mo, Jami” because I know I can handle it better. 

One thing I noticed is that he’s starting to get boring while nebulizing him. Before kasi, I’ll just give him the hose then he’ll put it inside his mouth to drool and munch it but now, he wants to do this and that, stand up and do whatever he can to get away from it. Hay,, his dosage of salbutamol was doubled kasi so it takes time before it is consumed Hehe. 

On a lighter note, James is still a happy baby. I never saw him matamlay even he’s not feeling well because of his cough. Although I know he sometimes misses Nanay because he cries while sleeping, as if nananaginip, I know one thing, we became closer and I have known him more. Maybe that 2 days of absence will never get paid but those days made me and my son bond more and even get to know each other well. =) Good thing too that Nanay Isa ( Nanay's younger sister) arrived yesterday. She will be looking after James for a month or two while Nanay is away.

Get well soon, Jami..

P.s

Sorry about the quality of the photo, this is the best that I can post as of the moment. This was taken from Daddy's phone and I asked him to upload this on his facebook account. The photos from my camera is piling up but the internet sucks big time kaya I can't manage to upload them yet. =(

P.s.2

Fifty Shades of Grey Trailer is now available!!! Go watch it then let's wait until next year to uncover the love story behind Christian and Anastacia. I can't wait to watch it in big screen. I was wondering how did they make those adult scenes without the feeling of bastos. It's really a challenge. Go check Mommy Joy's Blog of Happiness of Joy, she mentioned her views about this book too. =)

Share a Coke with..

It has been 3 days since my last post. I am sorry for not being able to blog. I was suppose to upload some photos like I promised but the broadband is acting up. It's on edge and I had a hard time connecting through so I stopped kesa ma stress pa ako. Haha.

I was reading all the entries of other Moms too about Typhoon Glenda. It really left a mark on every streets in Metro. Good thing everyone is safe. =)

Anyway, I am so kilig whenever I watch the Coca - Cola commercial where it shows the name branding "Share a coke with..". The lady on the commercial was holding the name "Jen" eh. Hahaha. I just find it cute (syempre name ko eh). Hahaha. I found out about it on my officemate when he bought a coke in a bottle having my name on it. Then everyone in the office was like, "Wooooww!". Palibhasa most of us seldom watch TV so they didn't know about this new advertisement of Coke. Of course I have to get the label from him. I kept it for a reason I don't even know. Maybe to show it to James when he grew up? Hehe.

source

Sorry mababaw na post but why don't you find your name too? Tell me what you felt after. =)

P.S Sooner or later, I will be uploading some photos na talaga so please bare with me. The internet wasn't working maybe because of the typhoon that passed.

See y'all soon =)

After #GlendaPH

Hi everybody! Are you safe after the Typhoon Glenda? Ako? Ayos naman. Ayun awa ng Dyos wala pa rin kaming kuryente. Nakakaloka!! There were approximately 6-7 posts were blown down by Glenda that's why we don't have electricity yet. How annoying it can get? I had a hard time going home last night because it was too dark. Good thing, my eyesight remains great for years having 20-20 vision that's why I came home safe.

Ok, enough of the rants. I hope everyone are safe after, have you seen the scary strong winds? I was too nervous and thinking that something might hit our window and the glass will break so I kept on waking up. I also felt that the electricity was turning on and off so I asked Nanay to turn off the fridge. Next thing that I found out that James was crying because he's sweating, the power is out so I have to become the manual electric fan. Hayy.. I can't understand why he was perspiring even the weather was cold.

Surprisingly, my brother came home around 8am from work. He's working graveyard kasi and he said that he doesn't want to stay in the office. Kasagsagan pa naman ng bagyo but he insisted to go home. Buwis - buhay daw sya. Haha. Around 11am, the wind and rain stopped so I took the opportunity to go to work. I was so happy because there were only limited number of vehicles around so there was no traffic. Since typhoon Glenda had wind mostly rather that rain, there were no floods everywhere which I really liked. Ok lang na mahangin basta wag na sana bumaha. When I came to work, only some of us reported to work. Unfortunately, in BPO's walang bagyo - bagyo. Pasok kung pasok, waterproof naman daw kami eh. Hayy.. Good thing, the place I am working now is not that stressful compared to what I had before na sobrang stressful kaya I am really thankful at sobrang nanghihinayang akong umabsent.

Thank God we are safe, we had a house to protect us from the strong winds and heavy rains. Although parang magkaka kulani na ang kili - kili namin ni Nanay kakapaypay kay James, I hope sooner or later, magkaron na ng electricity.

Stay safe and dry guys! Another typhoon is coming this weekend daw but not sure yet kasi di pa ako makanood ng news dahil sa black out. Let you know soon! =)

Take Care, Typhoon Glenda is Coming!

Take care everyone, Typhoon Glenda is coming our way. I am at work and quite afraid later tonight when I go home but don't worry, I am prepared with the flood here in Gil Puyat. Hehehe. I didn't know that there's a typhoon pala. My sister told me before leaving our house and what's funny is that I am wearing a white jeggings. Hahahah. So kamusta naman to kapag nagbaha diba? I got lazy changing it to a skirt so instead, I bought a short and extra undies na lang so I can change if the flood got worse. As a matter of fact, I never ever went to the flood that's above my knee because I am scared of it. I hope I'm home before the rain and the wind get worse tonight. They said it will landfall at 2am so be prepared everyone.

By the way, Our team celebrated our first year here in our pantry. It was a potluck so everyone were very full leaving the pantry. We even got take outs pa for our lunches later in the afternoon. Hehe. I will post our nakaka umay na selfie soon.

Oo nga pala, I'm sorry if I am not having any photos uploaded here yet. Pagpasensyahan na at mejo pre-occupied pa ako.

And my previous post' font is weird. I don't know what happen there. It was very small no?! I tried fixing it pero ayaw nya so dedma na lang.

Again, take care everyone. Be safe and stay dry. Mwuah! mwuah! Tsup Tsup! =)

P.S  Guys do you know how to put a new page here say for example with James' Milestone then when they click on that, they will be routed the posts I made with James' stories? I am trying to figure that out for the longest time, I don't know how to do it. =( H.E.L.P!!

I Choose to be Happy! You Should too..

Hi everyone, sorry for being out of blogosphere for a while. I was so busy on so many things – I mean my mind. Would you imagine that it’s almost half of the month? And half of the year? Oh dear! Ang bilis ng panahon! I didn’t even notice it because of what I am going through. 

I wanted to be honest with you by telling you every bits of the story but I don’t want to hurt those people whose making me feel hurt. I think it isn’t right diba? If they make you worst, kiber mo sa kanila. It wouldn’t make everything ok kung papatulan mo lang sila diba? Speaking of it, as of this moment that I am typing, this isn’t what I felt awhile ago talaga. This is what I like about blogging kasi it makes my mind think of a better way on how I would respond on things. Ang chaka naman kasi diba if negativity ang ma acquire ng readers ko ( kung may readers nga talaga ako). Oh well I think there were. Hehe, like Mommy Joy of Happiness of Joy, Edelweiza of Life in Manila, Gladysof Pinay Mom. They are those who constantly drop by a comment or two to give encouraging words on everything I write in here which makes me want to write more. I am learning from them too so I hope you can check their blogs too because I am sure you will pick a moral lesson on stories they share. At least from these blogs, its real life stories you read and not fictional. =) 

Teka, mejo na carried away na ako at nalayo sa topic ng slight. Hehe. 

Going back, I was not feeling well this weekend. Not literally sick but my mind is preoccupied with so many things. With that, I am not able to think and feel straight. I get affected with words and things that those people around me do quite habitally and it makes me feel uneasy. Although I am thankful that everyday, I get to see James smiling and playing and that makes me feel right. 

I came in the office late today because of me playing emo. Hehe. I decided to go to work so I can express this better here in my blog. Yes, I go to work to earn money and to blog. I am not a good writer. I don’t know how will I explain things, I have a very unorganized mind like my closet and I hate talking about how I feel because it will make me weep, and weep and weep.. weep.. weep.. Wait, I found it funny but really, I hate speaking about my feelings specially if that’s what I felt right then and there. Most of the time, I reflect and find some revengeous act, (if there’s such word) like most of us do but this blog makes me feel positive. I am hating negativity if I am writing about things I want to share here because I want you to not to feel what I am going through. It’s really hard to “reyna ng emotera” to be on this kind of situation. 

Anyhoo, instead on elaborating on the negative eklaver that’s going on with me, I read this article at www.marcangel.com which I would like to share to you instead. I was introduced on their website when I read Ms. Jenni Epperson’s post about “30 Things to start doing for yourself”. 

It’s really a timing that I read this post with what I am in as of the moment. I would put in the things they wrote and would pick a line each on how they describe it in their blog which I liked the most then if I may, I will share my insights and maybe with that, you can have a glimpse of what I am up to.  

20 Habbits Happy People Have ( But never talked about)

 

1. They don’t caught up in other people’s drama.

“happy people are often thankful for all the rude, obnoxious, and difficult people they meet in life, because these people serve as important reminders of how NOT to be.”

Mommy Jen says: 

There always been people who love to bully someone who they think are inferior to them. In my case, I get affected with what other people say specially if they are those who are important to me. Later on, I will have a reflection of what has happened and it makes me realize that somehow, what they have told me has helped me become strong and care less on what other have said about me. I care less, I mean I don’t care whatever other people have said or continuously saying about me. Anyway, they don’t matter. 

2. They give to others whenever they are able. 

 “providing social support is actually more beneficial to our happiness than receiving it.’

Mommy Jen says: 

Honestly speaking, I never helped anyone who are in need specially those who experienced earthquakes and typhoons. Some of you might thought why I have never done that. Don’t get me wrong. I grew up having only what is enough (sometimes not kasi malakas ako kumain nung bata pa ako) on my plate. When Typhoon Yolanda hit Tacloban, we had so many used clothes that are bound to Iloilo which we could have donated but Nanay’s immediate family in Iloilo had an aftermath of Yolanda too so we decided to help them first. I have never understand the happiness through helping yet so I think I must have to figure that out, right? Although with some other things, I sure have helped someone on my own little things. 

3. They nurture their important relationships.

“The number of friends isn’t the important aspect here; it’s the effort you put into your relationships that matters. “

Mommy Jen says: 

 

I am really not Ms. Congeniality at all. I only mingle on those people who I think are worth my time and trust. I have received a comment here at work that I don’t often get along with other people. It’s not that I am anti-social really, I just don’t feel like making friends with everybody. Talking to them is enough because I am sure that those 1-3 friends that I picked have been so much enough to keep me sane. 

4. They leave space to love themselves too.

“Happy people know self-love isn’t selfish.”

Mommy Jen says: 

Most of the time, people think that if you have been going out to the salon, pampering yourself, going places and buying stuff you want; you are being selfish because you had the courage to think about yourself first rather than the needs of someone else. I think I have experienced it in a way now that I am a Mom to James. I bought him all the clothes that I found cute in the department store which left me having only two pairs of newly acquired jeans, handed –brand new shoes from Mom, clothes from Ate Fraulene that would fit my post-partum body and a super duper unmatching clotes. I think I have to work on this too. Necesitties of our loved ones are important, of course. But we have to take care of ourself too so we can show them that we can take care of them too by taking care of ourself. 

5. They focus on effectiveness over popularity.

“It’s this feeling of knowing you made a difference that matters in the end.”

Mommy Jen says: 

I have met a lot of people at work. Each one has a story to tell for sure but this person I met 6 months ago have made a lot of difference in me. In a way, I have been telling him – yes, He’s him – a lot of the things that’s bothering me. I tell him what I think, he’ll tell me things that my alter-ego would tell me. He makes me think rational on most things rather than being emotional about it. He wasn’t just someone that I have met but someone who would have thought me how to about thinks. Men are less likely emotional unlike us girls who would dwell on the how we felt on a situation right? Being popular isn’t really the trick of being happy, but being effective on making a difference that making oneself contented.

6. They say “no” when they need to

“Sometimes you have to set clear boundaries.”

Mommy Jen says: 

No – is really hard to express specially if that person has been so good to us. Like me, I have been saying yes all along because I think I can handle things and I am helping someone in a way but I am wrong, truly wrong. I ended up being miserable in certain things faster than I thought. I should have not afraid to say “No” if I don’t feel like it. And now, Yes, I am paying for those yeses. So we have to set clear boundaries of how we want things to be and not living in someone else’s expectations about us. 

7. They sincerely practice gratitude.

“The more you count your blessings, the more blessings there will be to count, and the happier you will be.”

Mommy Jen says: 

Everyday, I feel miserable about things that I think I did wrong. I wasted every inch of things I once owned. I always forgot how lucky I am to have a house to go home to, to be able to buy food when I am hungry, a bunch of clothes to wear, I have friends to talk to when I am low, a family that bullies me but stays on my side when I am lost, having a man who have loved me regardless of what I am and a handsome and lovable son. There was a tarpaulin along Gil Puyat Ave that says, “Someone out there is facing a harder battle than what you have, so be thankful of yada yada”. Sorry, I forgot the whole sentence but it is somehow telling everyone na hindi lang ikaw ang pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa kaya wag kang mag inarte. Hahaha. Sorry, Just trying to make you laugh. =) But it’s true, we have a lot to be thankful about. Just look around you and you’ll find them. =) So eto na ang bagong mantra ko from now one. =)

8. They cultivate optimism.

“People who think optimistically see the world as a place packed with endless opportunities, especially in trying times.”

Mommy Jen says: 

Everyone here had things that we have to face everyday. Things that you really can’t avoid regardless on how much you try your best to escape from it. I, have a lot of situation to deal with. Honestly speaking, I don’t have this optimism with me every now and then so I really have to work on this too. I have to be optimistic in every situation now that I have a son. I have to make him see that I am strong and whatever situation I am thrown into, I can deal with it with a smile and with all confidence. =)

9. They don’t attach themselves to every success and failure.

“Never let success get to your head and never let failure get to your heart.”

Mommy Jen says: 

I always think how those successful people go on with their lives. Sometimes, I think they are just too lucky for not having a bumpy road along the way. It isn’t the case pala, they simply don’t get big head when things are going their way. On the other hand, the failure is not being taken personally. I specially feel down when we failed like with my cooking, lagging epic fail but in the long run, I learned from it and next time I’m cooking it, I am confident in making it perfect. 

10. They develop strategies for coping in hard times.

“How you respond to the hard times is what shapes your character. “

Mommy Jen says: 

No one faces a happy and successful journey ahead. There’s always been a hard time going our way. I think I am into it as of now but thankfully I have read this which enlightened me somehow on how to deal on things. There should always be a strategy, a plan B that I can count on and whatever path I chose, it will make me as me in the long run. 

11. They see rejection as protection from what’s not meant to be.

“Rejection doesn’t mean you aren’t good enough; it means the other person failed to notice what you have to offer.”

Mommy Jen says: 

Most of the time, rejection makes us feel bad and low. While we are diverting our attention why those things didn’t come our way, we should be busy on making things perfect next time because for sure, we deserve better and it’s coming our way right? I remembered being rejected when the company I am eyeing for didn’t accept me, and because of that I found this company I am now where I have more time for myself and to my son. I can spend time in the morning before going to work specially on weekend. Looking back on where I was before, my time and energy is being consumed all along where I only go home dead tired and ready to sleep. Indeed, that rejection lead me to where I am now. 

12. They are focused on the present.

“We have no way of knowing what lies ahead, but that’s what makes the journey even more exciting – that’s what makes life worth living today.”

Mommy Jen says: 

I always look back on things. I always say “I should have not done this and that”. Believe me, I super hate it. The feeling was so annoying that I ended up getting pissed on things that should have been left behind. I am letting my past dictate how I feel towards things which is wrong. I have to work on this too. I have to focus on what today can offer and live by it to the best that I can or else, I will have today a most regretful one tomorrow. 

13. They dedicate time to meaningful pursuits.

“There are seven days in the week, and “someday” isn’t one of them."

Mommy Jen says: 

Whenever I make dreams, I always say “Someday I’ll become this and that”. Nowadays, I have realized that I have to achieve my dreams and things that I want to be before I got pregnant but it is never too late I know. I still have plenty of time to pursue what I really have in mind. I am a young mom and I want to achieve things before I reach 30. I have to work on this one. 

14. They are fully committed to their top priorities.

“It’s commitment that creates outcomes worth smiling about."

Mommy Jen says: 

Originally, we have to identify our priorities in life. My top most list is James. I am always committed with everything that relates to him. I can’t imagine a day without him and that what makes me become a WM. I wanted to provide him those wonderful things that life has to offer. I may not have all the money in the world, I will be giving him those things that can’t be bought with million dollar penny. Thinking about those wonderful memories that I am planning that we do together really makes me happy. =)

15. They embrace discomfort for mastery of a desired skill.

“ The rewards of becoming great at something in the long run far outweigh the short-term stress of mastery.”

Mommy Jen says: 

I can relate this in my cooking adventures where I started cooking 2 – 3 Sundays ago. 2 out of 3 cooking escapades I had is failed (including this passed Sunday) but it didn’t give me a single doubt about my skills. I know I am terrible at it but sooner or later, who knows? I may be the best cook. Hahaha #ambisyosa. I don’t care if someone thinks that I am wasting money in cooking failed dishes, it not their money I am wasting anyway. I wanted to be good in cooking because I want to be able to cook for James. I want him to share to his friends that his Mom cooks the best of his favorite dishes diba? So to those whose bullying me in cooking, I cooked edible food for a starter. Not too bad to go to the waste bin. 

16. They take care of their physical health.

“If you don’t have your physical energy in good shape, then your mental energy (your focus), your emotional energy (your feelings), and your spiritual energy (your purpose) will all be negatively affected. ”

Mommy Jen says: 

I am not sure if I am physically fit though I seldom get sick – as in seldom. As soon as I get my HMO, probably next month, I’ll have myself checked every month to become physicaly fit. I am also planning in joining in Fun Runs to because I’ll have a buddy na!! Yehey!! I’ll just have to wait for a couple of months kasi they said I should wait for a year daw pero babatukan na ako ng friend kong Nurse kasi I can do normal things na daw except lifting heavy things. Anyhoo, I have plan things ahead of time, it’s just a matter of executing the plan.

17. They spend money on experiences, rather then needless stuff.

““Experiential purchases” tend to make us happier for two key reasons: 1. Great experiences improve over time when we reminisce about them.  2. Experiences are often social events that get us out of our house and interacting with people we care about.”

Mommy Jen says: 

This I would say I achieved before I had James. As I shared to you before, I have travelled different places although it’s not out of the country. Remember, I have applied passport January 2013 then March of the same year, I found out I was pregnant with James. Maybe because he wants to join me on my first every out of the country tour ano? Hehe. Anyway, I would like to spend still one “Experiential purchases” like travelling, new skills learned and some events that would make me remember until my gray hair days. I advised you to go places because it is a long lasting memory than of those clothes, shoes and needless stuff.

18. They savor life’s little joys.

“Happiness is a how, not a what – a mindset, not a destination.”

Mommy Jen says: 

I always, always forgot to be joyful in little things that comes my life. I guess most of us does because for me, I always look on the bigger ones that are life changing before being so happy about it. Maybe, I have to learn the concept of contentment first so that I can be happy with the smallest things. They said to always live below your means and appreciate things more often. Its not bad to reach for the top, but always be grateful of those smallest things along the way. I have to work on this one as well.

19. They embrace the impermanence of life.

“Sometimes walking away is a step forward.”

Mommy Jen says: 

They said that the only constant thing in this world is change. People and things come and go – some are never ment to stay and some are here for good. Whatever it takes, we should be ready on the changes and still willing to go on with our life regardless of what is coming along our way. It may be hard but this will be one happy step moving forward. This I have to focus on too.

20. They live a life they actually want to live.

“Surround yourself with people who support and care not for the “you” they want you to be, but for the real you.”

This is the sum up of those listed above. Living the life you want to be and not everyone wants you to become. In the past year of my life, a lot of changes came and sometimes I don’t feel like being able to attend to every single one of it. I grew up in a way where I have been given a freedom to choose what I really want in life. I am lucky not be be asked on how to live my own life so I guess I have to think not once, twice but ten times until I’ll realize what’s the best for me and my son moving forward. I am not born to please everyone but to live my life the fullest. 

Today, I chose the path of the Happy people and decided to share them to you. It might be just the word of encouragement for you to go on with your life but the tarpaulin in Gil Puyat says ; “Somewhere out there, Someone is facing a harder battle than you are..” so I have to being grateful in things coming your way and working on each of those opportunities that drags you down will send you to happy place where happy people are living at. 

Don’t forget to visit their website by clicking here. I promise, you’ll learn so many things about life. 

Choose to be happy today, and everyday. =)