It’s been couple of days nung huling beses akong nag post. I was
so missing in action talaga. I have been busy last week reading 3 books until
now. I wasn’t able to fully finish the third book since the start of the week
kasi my shift has changed. I am working in the afternoon na so it’s kinda hard
for me to make a blog post and to read at the same time.
Anyway, I celebrated Mother’s Day in a very simple way. I think
most mothers do. Or maybe not? Hehe. Most of us just want to give time for
ourselves but there are some who celebrates it with family. I have chosen the
latter.
James, I and Daryl went to SM Southmall. We were strolling kasi
libre aircon eh. Hehehe.
But mind you, James slept in his stroller there for 3 to 4 hours I
think. I don’t know what happened to him pero sobrang ang haba ng tulog nya
kahit maingay at maraming tao. Yes.. sobrang daming tao. Ano pa nga ba?
Also, last Saturday, Mom went to Iloilo, her hometown, to have all those old useful clothes we have
at home. She got at least 2 huge baggage with her. I didn’t think it will be that
hard without her at home kasi my sister can look after James. I’m so wrong
pala, wala akong kapalitan eh. Hehe.
Come Monday, James woke up to his usual routine of 6am. He was
playing, rolling on his tummy then back to his back a couple of times. I am
still asleep not until he was crying na. He got tired of playing na siguro. I took
care of him, bathe him, cuddled, played wile I was waiting for my shift which
was 1pm in the afternoon. OO! Mainit. Hayy.
I chose to bathe him early, around 9am so that my sister won’t
have to bother. I had him ate the newly bought cerelac flavor in wheat banana
with milk, something like that. Hehe. He doesn’t like it I think kasi parang
mejo nagme make face sya kapag sinusubuan ko. There was a strange thing din
kasi everytime na papalapit na yung spoon nya sa bibig nya, he’ll laugh. I don’t
know why. Baka kala nya nagpe play kami.
Hehehe.
Kalokang bata! =)
In the end, hindi rin ako nakapasok. My sister won’t wake up. I felt
great more than guilt of not going to work. I felt happy kasi I can take care
of him for another day. I thought of establishing a routine for him. When he
wakes up, he’ll play sa bed habang good mood pa sya, then once na mainip sya, I’ll
carry him with me to buy my breakfast. While I’m eating, he’ll get a chance to
ride his walker and have Him discover things around him.
Teka maisingit ko lang,
James was so eager to learn things around him. He was curious
about cats na. There were cats sa labas ng bahay namin, he was looking at them
seriously na para bang kung nakakapagsalita sya, nasabi nyang “Shet. May mga
ganyan pa lang nilalang sa mundo.” Hahaha. It was funny how he looked at it. So
curious.
Continue.
He will then fAll asleep after. If he’s in the mood, he will sleep
for 3 hours or more then wakes up at 12pm. That’s when we will go to his Tita
Grace’s house para makapagpa aircon sa hapon, sobrang init kasi nowadays
grabe!.
He will then have his afternoon nap. He will wake up at 6pm then
play again. Lastly before he sleeps, he’ll change his clohes pagkatapos
magpunas then go to bed na. so far, we followed it for 3 days na magkasama
kami. I was so happy, Nanay na Nanay lang talaga ang peg ko. =)
Come Tuesday when I was about to go to work, I missed James. For 3
days that we’re together 24 hours a day, I got used to his crying, I understand
what he wants and what makes him irate. Hmmm.. minsan I wish I can be with him.
Oo tiring, given na yun eh. Pero to complain about it? Parang too much naman
yun. It’s the job of a life time eh, why complain. =)
I got to learn some things that I’ll do to attend to my other
needs like washing his milk bottles, taking a bath, pooping, yes – pooping. When
Nanay used to do all this in a breeze, she can even wash clothes while taking
care of James whereas me can’t even take a bath when in-charge of him. Since I was
left all alone with him, I found perfect time to learn. Katulad na lang kanina,
napo poop na ako eh gising si James. I am hesitant to leave him sa higaan kasi
he can crawl na using his chest. He rolls from back to tummy then back to lying
position. Kiber ng lolo nyo kung nasa sahig na sya at walang sapin. I took
advantage of his stroller, left the restroom door open and constantly calling
him to let him know na may kasama sya. Later on, I heard him crying na. I looked
for him from the restroom and found he was trying to go to the kitchen din and
on our restroom, since maliit anga hallway, he can’t manage na idaan ang
stroller nya dahil sa masikip nga, plus masyadong malaki yung base ng stroller
nya. So ayun .. umiyak sya ng bongga. Naudlot tuloy ang pag poop ko.
Heheheh. =)
I found the perfect time to work on his feeding bottles din. I’m
doing it after he sleep for the night kaya surely hindi nya ako maiistorbo. For
his bathe time naman, either I’ll place him on our mattress or on his stroller
while preparing for the things we need then will get him as soon as ready na
lahat at maliligo na lang sya.
So happy for myself for finding ways. =)
Although it’s tiring, I am happy to do all those over again. Ganto
pala ang feeling ng Mommy. You get happy, tired, annoyed, pissed, cuddled,
loved, then happy again, lastly great that you were given a wonderful gift. It’s
fulfillment when you see your child explore and get amazed on simple things.
Oha! Ang drama!
Hahaha =)
Pasensya na, post Mother’s Day drama lang ito. =)
Pano ka ba naman kasi hindi maaattach sa batang ‘to? Eh bungisngis
pa lang nya, mai inlove ka na.
Dear James,
It’s Mother’s Day last Sunday. Of course you don’t understand it
yet pero ok lang, you’ll get use to it. Yearly kasi yan anak eh. This is the
day where people recognizes the importance of a mother in everyone’s life. You see,
I may not be the perfect person to tell na sundin ang utos ko kasi I was a
stubborn little girl din naman kay Nanay. Pero believe me, when I had you, I realized
why she’s like that to me on my younger days. I believed her in many points
specially the first few months after I had you, when I had that heart breaking
story of us. Mejo hindi nga lang halata na sinusunod ko si Nanay kasi ang drama
nya anak eh. Although Moms tend to be like that naman siguro. I to you,
sometimes get teary eyed din naman.
Thanks to you, I became one of those women who has their jobs with
24/7 mind and body wrecking responsibility with no salary. It’s being a mom,
James. Someday you will become a parent and surely you will understand. I just
hope you will not as stubborn as me.
I have noticed, marunong ka ng mag inarte. I just hope I can
capture those faces you make when you’re pretending to cry. Blame it to my
phoine’s memory card, too full to handle all my stuffs. Also, I saw your face
while looking on a stray cat outside our house. You look awesome, being amazed
in so little things. I hope I can read and record what you were thinking so you’ll
know someday how eager you are to discover things around you. I am surely
excited for you to learn more but hesitant at the same time kasi for sure ubod
ka ng kulit. But whatever that’ll make you a better person, I am up to it. =)
Iloveyou.