For Moms and Our Dear Child

I have read this from my new favorite blog, mommyfleur.com. She had this featured on her blog about our growing baby. Like her, I am so paranoid when James came. There always been times na I am alone sitting on a bus going to work or going home thinking what if the bus lost its break and fell on coastal Manila Bay while on Coastal Road. What will I do? What if I’ll die there? Kawawa naman ang James ko. I have to live long, strong, healthy and wealthy. That’s always been to my mind when I had James. There were also times na what do I have to do when he started growing up? Am I able to raise him well as a good, a responsible and a loving person? That often goes to my mind.

While browsing thru mommy fleur’s blog, I found this:

1. Don’t spoil me. I know quite well that I ought not to have all I ask for. I’m only testing you.

2. Don’t be afraid to be firm with me. I prefer it, it makes me feel secure.

3. Don’t let me form bad habits. I have to rely on you to detect them in the early stages.

4. Don’t make me feel smaller than I am. It only makes me behave stupidly “big”.

5. Don’t correct me in front of people if you can help it. I’ll take much more notice if you talk quietly with me in private.

6. Don’t make me feel that my mistakes are sins. It upsets my sense of values.

7. Don’t protect me from consequences. I need to learn the painful way sometimes.

8. Don’t be too upset when I say “I hate you”. Sometimes it isn’t you I hate but your power to thwart me.

9. Don’t take too much notice of my small ailments. Sometimes they get me the attention I need.

10. Don’t nag. If you do, I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.

11. Don’t forget that I cannot explain myself as well as I should like. That is why I am not always accurate.

12. Don’t put me off when I ask questions. If you do, you will find that I stop asking and seek my information elsewhere.

13. Don’t be inconsistent. That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.

14. Don’t tell me my fears are silly. They are terribly real and you can do much to reassure me if you try to understand.

15. Don’t ever suggest that you are perfect or infallible. It gives me too great a shock when I discover that you are neither.

16. Don’t ever think that it is beneath your dignity to apologize to me. An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.

17. Don’t forget I love experimenting. I couldn’t get along without it, so please put up with it.

18. Don’t forget how quickly I am growing up. It must be very difficult for you to keep pace with me, but please do try.

19. Don’t forget that I don’t thrive without lots of love and understanding, but I don’t need to tell you, do I?

20. Please keep yourself fit and healthy. I need you.

There. She got it from Ms. Daphne Osena’s Blog pala. Very touching right? I am almost teary – eyed when I read it kasi I remember James a lot. I would like to print it out and post it to where I can see it often.

Happy Kids, Happy Mommies.

I hope you can learn from it to. J

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James,

I am very pressured on how I can raise you well. I really don’t know how and it does scare me dahil ayokong lumaki ka na walang self-confidence and shy. I just want you to be like me. I want you to always think that you will have a better future if you trust and believe in yourself. Nobody in this world can help you but yourself. I want you to become someone that is not afraid of anything. I want you to become successful. I want you to be as healthy as you can be. Now that you are growing really, really fast, I am so worried na I can’t catch up with you. I watch you growing and developing to a man you’ve wanted. I always want you to know that I love you more than anything else and that would show over time. I hope someday, you will understand what I meant.

Again, I love you...

Mommy Jen